Well, welcome to my life.

I was really hoping to feel better about everything as 2011 passed but, I can’t say I do. I have lost a lot of people who meant a lot to me this past year and I continued to miss the people I had already lost. I also had one of the best summers I have ever had and I traveled out of the country for the first time. As for 2012 I am facing you in fear. I am living on my own now in an apartment by myself. I guess you could say I am proud of that but of course it will take some getting used to… needless to say there is a lot of change in my life for this year and as of recently I am not sure it is good change. i can only hope that this year will be better and more stable for me mentally and financially but the first few days havent gone very well. However, looking back all of these passed years have started off in a phonemenal way and have ended absolutely terribly so MAYBE just maybe I will start this year not so great and end it in the best way ever.

This year I want to find what makes me happy and I want to be happy. I want to fix me.

Heres to 2012